currently in rheumatology ward

Dr K is immitating me.. no.. hes undeniably always like to tease me
i think hes a weirdo
you know, a kind of doctor who laugh out loud after inflicting pain to the patient
enjoys making other people grimacing in horror
thats dr K

otherwise Dr Kuan is quite a nice specialist
he nearly put me into tears when he 'scolded' me for forgetting to review Chan renal profile
he said he didnt scold me
he just want me to observe carefully this patient
eventho everytime i answer his q he'll say it wrong - and tell me nicely that the answer is wrong

i'm a bit confused of rheumato treatment and the way patient presents
- joint pain, scalydactyly, systemic sclerosis, abdominal pain, persitent vomtiing
its a kinda mixing together
all symptoms come in a jumble
i mean, how can u differentiate persistent vomiting from an active/ flare of SLE from a GIT infection?

check the C3/C4/ ESr/ CRp level?

k , thats to monitor active SLE ..

and what else did i learnt?

dermatomyositis...
hurm , complex, but its quite direct..
proximal muscle weakness, shawl sign skin appearence, raising LDH / CK
need to get EMG appt and muscle biopsy ( tro fibrilation of the affected muscle)

hey, quite a good environemtn to learn rheumato
especially if im going with a to tganu

ganu kite

drfatiha

a and me is going to ---- insyaALLAH

inviting all to the masjid

may ALLAH bless the relationship
in its purest form
till jannah

fillah

salam
try to be persistent in life

alhamdulillah, im entering medical as 3rd posting. so far, im enjoying it.
This rotation taught me how to live, act, behave and think like a doctor
more so because medical is our core knowledge of management

talking of core, how core is core?
to vote for the least dhoor in politics, is it considered core?

relentless
how unjust
and blind

whatever it is. be who you are,
DO NOT IMITATE OTHERS '

LIVE your own personality

and to search for ALLAH;s love

forever and ever

jihad fi sabilillah

`blessed me, dear ALLAH.

i'm destined to work and work and work
without mercy

ALLAh.. ive been waiting for so long
too long that i think i cant move on
i need your warmth your love your mercy to cont living..

o lord, help me
reach me
i'm searching for u
in your endless bounty of love

this life has gone so far
and long
can i last
to live til the end..

my love
u know how i miss you
and how i hate to be occupied in this world
i;m living to serve others
should i be proud of it?

o my lord
im just s human being
with lots of weakness and eagerness
and wish and dreams
to live like others
and to have some time for worship

o lord
my dear ALLAH.. help me not to feel desperate in this life
for this is just a short journey
of life from the eternal life i will abode
but i fear myself
being reluctant and selfish
being in relentles fear
comparing self to others

forgive me my lord..
forgive me for the way i am..
i am just your servant
at the bounty of my lord.. proclaim..

hospital selayang
oncal labour room
1205am
31/1/08

missing something that is soo unreachable.. or perhaps impossible ..
reaching far to the twilight zone ..

with drops of hopes and glittering of dreams..
with heart imploring for forgiveness and lights ...

my lord...im just a human being.. spare me ..
my beloved.. i miss you.. i love you....................

my lord, help me and sustain me from hellfire ..

wattaquu fitnatal laa tusiibannal laziina zolamu minkum khosssshah..
wa'lamuuu anna ALLAHa shadeedul iqab.....................

silent sunlight welcome in..
laailaha illa ALLAH..

coz the world is not a box,
theres no lid, no doors no cardboard flaps or locks
we have to tip the lid and let some light in..

hemmm.... hemm...

fatiha

malam tadi straight oncal PAC
hantar ramai sungguh manusia nak bersalin tengah malam ke Labour room
dengar cite orang labour room bengang.. diorang panggil ana jonah
gelaran yang biasa utk orang2 yang hyperactive and keja keras menyusahkan orang lain
he he
imagine, malam semalam hantar 2 orang primid siap prem lafgi tu.. mane tak ngamuk si sangeeta and khairiina.. sorry guys , i wa s not sleeping the entire night as well..